Candice Michelle Candy Coated

  

Dear fans,

It’s been awhile since I have written a blog for Candy-Coated for so many reasons! To start off, I have been through an absolute whirlwind of a journey and have so much to say that when I start to write I have a whole different story to tell! First of all, my blog title of Candy-Coated really doesn’t fit what I have to say anymore. I wasn’t really candy-coating much of anything, and now after this journey, I’m not about to continue that! It’s the new person I’ve developed into, the reality of who I am!

I’m going to take it back to my first return about a month before WrestleMania. As you know, I broke my clavicle in October, which crushed more than a broken bone, it was my heart! I was finally getting the opportunity that I worked so hard for, and felt like I was busting my ass for this dream and to earn the respect in this business of my peers and fans! Then in a moment, it was swept away from me. I came back because the whole time I was working towards that huge match of earning a right to be in WrestleMania! I did everything I could to be there, but when I was back on TV, I was miserable! It’s not that I wasn’t thankful, it’s just that I still wasn’t healed, but my heart wanted to do whatever it took to be involved in WrestleMania!

I was cleared to do minimal things and they gave me an inch, and I took a mile. I thought I could do it even though the fracture wasn’t completely bridged. WWE gave me a match and I took full advantage of it, but it didn’t work out to my advantage. With being in the ring only about five seconds, I did a dropkick which I decided to change in mid-air (not a smart idea). Not only did I botch it, but I instantly knew I had re-broken my clavicle! To let you know how much I wanted this, you can review the match. I wasn’t going to let anything stop me! I finished the match – with what I know now was a shattered collarbone in four spots – because I knew it would be the last time I could be in front of the fans for a while. I really have learned so much from the Superstars at WWE who have been injured like Triple H, HBK, and recently Randy Orton, that the injury doesn’t end the match. Then, of course, it set in that I would need surgery and most importantly miss WrestleMania!

I did the WrestleMania press conference and a major question for Big Show and Floyd Mayweather was is the risk worth the reward?!? Some people have asked me this same question knowing that I was the one taking the risk. Without a doubt, or a slight question in my mind, it was absolutely worth it! I would have never known if I didn’t try. I gave 110 percent and that can never be taken away from me.

WWE.com asked me to do an interview on my status, so I thought it’s time to start writing again! They asked what one thing I would say to Beth Phoenix, the Diva who took me out, is. Unforgettable – it’s like, Glamazons and stones may break my bones but that will never stop me! I think she is quite aware that I am coming back to claim what I lost. I am holding that rope tight and the fight of my life is still ahead of me. I will be ready. I just hope she is! It’s not a surprise that a rematch is in order and I won’t sneak up from behind, this time its face-to-face, head on. And who will win? What do I say when Beth questions my toughness and durability?

Ha! I can trash talk all I want, but you’ll see in the ring! I have been through a broken nose, fractured and shattered collarbone, and still finished the match. If that’s not durable, then what is! Not for one second have I thought this isn’t the sport for me. Instead, she has built me up to withstand the odds that were placed against me. In other words, I thank Beth Phoenix because she too will have the fight of her life!!!

My best wishes go out to Melina for her recent injury. I don’t wish this journey on my worst enemy. It was nothing less than brutal. A true fighter will survive, and I don’t see her giving up!

After the surgery I got a call from “Stone Cold” Steve Austin! Now if that doesn’t put a smile on your face, I’m not sure what will! He had read my interview after the incident and said he was so proud of me that I said nothing will keep me away from WrestleMania! Laying here on my couch feeling like it was my death bed, I thought how am I going to fly to WrestleMania in a few days! But he was right, I said I would, and by God’s grace, I did! I wanted to be there for the support of my fellow Superstars and to see that many fans!

It’s been about 14 weeks since my surgery and many wonder when I will be back. Well, the first time around I would inform everyone what the doctors told me and I personally got my hopes up for those dates! It kept getting pushed back and my heart kept getting crushed. I will let you know that I had a cat scan two weeks ago and things are looking great and I’m feeling even better! All the bones are connected and healing and are in perfect alignment. Bones have a time frame of there own, different for everyone in healing. I am in physical therapy and will be back very soon! Although it seems like an eternity, I promise you, it will be worth the wait!

This journey has had many lows both mentally and physically for me. I have had to do a lot of soul searching on why this happened, who I am, and what I will learn from this! I realized that God took this away from me to show me how much I really want it. You can see that I have fallen in love with this business! I have learned a lot about patience, dedication, determination, desire, and keeping the “faith.” That tattoo will never get old and it’s a constant reminder to me that everything is going to be okay! It has made me see what real beauty is all about! You can look at 100 hot girls and only some have the “it” factor! There’s so many levels I’m going to define beauty on and it starts on the inside. It’s the part of me that sparkles and makes people laugh. It’s the real me that wants to come out and shine!

Defining beauty is never giving up, giving more than receiving, always giving 110 percent, living each day as it were your last, and have fun doing it! My new blogs will be called “Defining Beauty.” As I experience it, I’ll share it with you. You guys have helped me through this journey and I can’t express in words my dear gratitude, but I can give you the best show I can when I return!!

Coming up in the Summer Skin launch on WWE.com you will see a snippet of Defining Beauty. Everyone’s used to hiding scars, but they’re truly unique and beautiful! I have earned my battle wound and will proudly show it off. I will never cover it up, it is uniquely mine … and quite frankly pretty bad ass!

Hugs-
Candice Michelle
Defining Beauty